Day 3

Today I feel sad. I am proud that I have made it to Day 3 of the Detox, but I think maybe all the bad stuff is starting to make its way out of my body and maybe that's why I feel sad.

At this moment I am questioning my job. Is it this really what I'm doing with my life? There is nothing wrong with doing what I'm doing - working in a producing and management office of this caliber is a pretty special thing. Many people would give their right arm for this chance. But it's not about this office - this office is great. It's about the rest of my life. And the fact that I don't know if this is what I want to do for the rest of my life. I'm surrounded by these incredibly passionate people, who seem so clearly to be meant to do what they are doing. I feel like I am floating in the middle. I feel like I am very good at getting things done and that is why I am kept around. I feel like my spirit is wilting a little, like I want to be recognized for what I do and given the opportunity to do more. But I have a tendency to want to move quickly, and this place does not let you do that - can't let you do that. I have never been very patient...

Aargh...so much more to think out, but for now I need to get back to being the house seat girl.