ALRIGHT SO I MISSED A FEW DAYS

It seems pretty clear that it's gonna take me a little while to get back into the swing of the blog thing. But I'm keeping on keeping on, and that's all I can do.

My cousin just graduated from basic training. Which I guess means he'll have to start doing army type things, like fighting in a war. It scares me that my little cousin - I can remember so clearly the year he was in my Aunt Jana's belly - will likely be deployed into a war. My family is pretty peace-lovin', so this is the first family member of mine to take that path and it is eating at my gut. I'm scared for his life. I'm scared for his big heart. I know that there are many opportunities he will have that he could not have had without this, but I'm still scared for him.

I hate fighting. I don't understand why people don't see that talking and listening and compromising and sharing and give and take are much better ways to resolve conflict than fighting. I'm not talking about the soldiers, though I think it's crazy important that the soldiers too are imbued with a base layer of calm, peace, and love. I'm talking about the leaders. We all have to choose compassion over aggression. Or children will continue to die.

LOVE.

TWO DAYS IN A ROW

I'm taking it one day at a time - I can definitely recommit to daily writing.

I like to do my very best at everything I do. I don't think that means that I have to be the absolute best - there are a lot of people out there who do a lot of things really well. I don't see any point in aiming to be better than others. But I do like to be the best me I can be.

I'm currently feeling a bit too overwhelmed to actually be the best I can be. I'm letting tasks slide off the side of my plate, like a slippery, vinaigrette covered cherry tomato. STOP SLIPPING AROUND AND GET ON MY FORK, DAMN IT!

But maybe what I am doing is the best I can do under the circumstances. We don't have enough help to get through this time at the top of our game. We are all working at least 10 hour days, often more like 12-14 hour days. None of us has had more than one day off a week for the past three weeks - some of us haven't even had that. We're all letting those damn tomatoes fall off our plates.

So maybe this is the best I can be right now. And I should just live in that moment and be that best.

Good, Better, Best. Never let it rest, until your good is better and your better is your best.

LET'S TRY THIS AGAIN

I'm foolishly attempting to restart my blog during a month that is sure to challenge my sanity. HAIR opens on Broadway on March 31st. And I'm currently giving my whole self to it. But I had a day off yesterday which gave me the false impression that I have SO much free time...so here I am...writing in da blog.

I'm looking forward to this week. A nice new face will be around the theatre, taking over the task of running the lottery. Which leaves me more time to focus on the other layers of my job, so that hopefully I can do them better and better and better. We'll celebrate a co-worker's birthday on Thursday. I'll have dinner with a dear friend on Wednesday. And there is the continued presence of HAIR, a show so full of love that people are flocking to the theatre to see it again and again and again.

Let the sun shine in.